A slight dampener

Hello all!

I thought I’d write another little chatty post, although it’s bit less fun than the last one!

Last year at some point (great memory) I had some pain in my arms that wasn’t like the usual Fibro/M.E pain I get so I went to the doctors about it (to be told it was exactly that *facepalm*). As it would only happen every so often I didn’t really bother going back, because there wasn’t any point. This year however, it kept coming back, with added pins and needles this time. I got myself to the doctor and my lovely, lovely lady took my bloods and had a poke around (we found out the arm that has the worst pain isn’t the one that goes numb! What is that?!) to see if she could find the cause. Well, as usual with me and my family the results came back normal and I’m now waiting for a date to have a scan. Such fun! Now with extra numbness in both arms, locking of elbow/wrist joints and not being able to support my head for long periods of time, projects I was working on have now been put on the back burner. Bollocks.

I’ve also been having a daily nap (apart from on weekends, I don’t get exhausted enough for a nap even though that’s when I do more, go figure) due to extreme exhaustion that I haven’t properly suffered with for several years. At the end of every day I tell myself that I’ll have to take it steady and chill out and not overdo it again. Then I wake up the next day feeling pretty okay and the whole cycle repeats. 😉 I may have gotten used to whatever’s wrong with my body but that doesn’t mean I’ll always listen, eh? 😛

Today things kind of sunk in for me. I’ve been so excited at the prospect of attempting college but in light of recent events I don’t think I’ll be able to do a trial run, let alone attend full-time. Quite disheartening but always the way in life. I kinda realised it when I was writing out a list of jobs that appeal to me (I made a joke with the photography tutor that I would, so that she could have a laugh at it) and then it hit me that actually I might not be able to achieve those things (at least at the moment, although if hunches are correct it isn’t really looking up) and then yeah. Wow that’s so badly worded. I’ve been trying to do things that might not aggravate the arms, but all the things I enjoy (talking to my friends, writing on here, playing my instruments, even drawing) involve a lot of movement that make it more difficult than I had first imagined.

With that said I am hoping that once I’ve had the scan they’ll have some vague idea with what’s wrong with me and know what medication can help with it, because I’m really not looking forward to the idea of having to stop things otherwise.

I really didn’t imagine this post to be as depressing as it was, but I clearly needed to get it off my chest. Good thing I’m ending this post now, eh?! Sorry if it makes no sense, I’m just kinda writing and hoping for the best. xD

I’ll hopefully be back with something a lot cheerier soon!
Jess x

Update time

Hello!

It’s a been a little while, eh? I can actually say it was because I was busy, shock horror! Well, there were many days in between that I did absolutely nothing, but I think that’s well deserved! To the catch up!

Since my last post I had a meeting with college which went . . . Well it didn’t go very well. Things are slowed down a bit at the moment but I won’t bother going into it in this post (I’ll probably say a lot about it next month for M.E Awareness Day, which may be a two-parter as it’s such a lengthy topic).

After that we’ve (dad) been busy doing up the a section of the garden for my kitchen garden!!! We haven’t been growing our own veg since our last house and I’ve been going on about doing it again here. It took a little bit of wearing down but I finally have it! 😀 Here is a little tour:

Full view

Full view

 

Some little hanging baskets with Pansy Violas either side of a trailing plant in the middle :)

Some little hanging baskets with baby faced Pansies either side of a trailing plant in the middle 🙂

 

A mixture of veg growing

A mixture of veg growing

 

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The veg bed

 

We have lost one of the tall veg (broccoli) due to a caterpillar being greedy. 😦 We also now have a herb bed thingy (the technical name, obviously!) that dad built on Friday so we just need to get the herbs going now. 🙂 Dad also bought me a lovely new watering can – a mint (I think) and cream colour – to replace the slightly rusty baby watering can we’ve had for a little while!

We had a few days out at local places, one being a walk around a local National Trust estate (which was probably too far of a distance as my legs were dying afterwards). It was such a lovely day out and the history of the house was so interesting, I couldn’t stop breathing out a ‘wow’ every now and then! We also had a day out on Easter Monday to have a picnic and wander around one of the local antique fairs (I say one, on our way home we noticed another . . .). I took my film camera so hopefully I’ll get them developed soon and they’ll be good quality. xD I got a couple of things while we were out, here they are:
kate bush

the beatles

1940s

Something to remind me of home and adventures with my great-aunt :)

Something to remind me of home and adventures with my great-aunt 🙂

What else . . . Oh! I’ve also been finishing off a costume (Middle Earth Dwarf inspired, should probably take more progress shots than I have, oops) but I shall probably write a post here, which is now a thing, by the way! The little side project I was working on is now up and running and it is called Rose’s Shire Adventures because I am an original person and – as you know – very good at coming up with titles! It’s to try to separate my fangirling from my personal things. I still haven’t quite decided how it’ll work out (in terms of separating posts) but we shall see. I think if I’m making costumes (for that world) it’ll be over on that blog and if I’m making normal clothing/handsewing/whatever else then it’ll be on here. I think that should work (because I’m pretty sure the readers of both blogs will be the same and I don’t want it to be repetitive)! Fingers crossed. 🙂

Well, I think we’re all caught up now! Quite a lengthy post but lots of pictures, which I don’t think as happened in a little while!! I shall see you soon I’m sure. 🙂
Jess x

PS: Sorry for the format of this post, I’m not really sure what happened!