When plans don’t work out

We all have those great plans, don’t we? I posted a few weeks ago things I’d wanted to achieve for both this blog and a few other little projects I have going on. Well, they didn’t happen (as you might’ve guessed). I’ve had a pretty bad relapse, one that’s knocked me back quite a bit. It’s hard to think of the words to describe how annoying this has been. I’ve been incredibly frustrated with it all, but haven’t really spoken about it much. It’s not surprising that I’ve been so rough, though. Since my friend coming up a few times and Download last year, I’ve not been right. So the relapse is just the end result of doing a bit too much this past year. I don’t regret any of it, though. I’ve done so well since moving house, that a relapse isn’t so bad, in the grand scheme of things.

I haven’t really had the energy to do anything, apart from mope around and watch tv shows (which don’t actually help the whole exhausted thing . . . Body, why?) so there’s been nothing to report. I have wanted to do a blog post for so long but it would have been pretty boring. xD Probably better than this miserable post . . . Oops.

There have been plus sides though. The days I’ve managed to freshen up and get outside the house have been lovely. My grandparents came up a few weeks ago, and we managed to go to a little garden centre. I hadn’t done that with them for so long, it felt great. 🙂 I also visited my cousin and my aunt which I hadn’t done in a while. Mack and I drew some very good pictures:
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Every time I tried writing stuff he crossed it out . . . And if I drew stars he rubbed them out. Then shortly after that he tried to get me out of my seat by force. I was being bullied by a two year old! How charming 😛

Dad and I managed to get out too at the weekend, when mum was out at a quilt show. We went out to feed the ducks, which was lovely. 🙂 We also made a few duck friends. One sat right up close to us and tried to stop itself from falling asleep, which was adorable. xD

So yeah, although my grand plans didn’t go according to . . . well, plan, I’ve had a few nice days that are much more worth it. I’m hoping that May will go a little better than this month, but we shall see. My best friend and I are really hoping we’ll have the energy to meet up this summer, so we’ve told each other we have a plan to get as much energy as we can. That way even if we meet up and we’re still rough, at least we’re in each other’s company and can watch films and chill on the sofa. 🙂

I’m also hoping to write an M.E Awareness Day blog post again, like I have done for the past two years. I’m starting to plan a rough outline, but will see what happens on the day.

That’s all from me for now, hopefully it wasn’t too much of a depressing post, sorry if it was. I shall be back soon with the M.E awareness and hopefully another “life” post with some more pictures. 🙂

See you soon!
Jess x

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2 thoughts on “When plans don’t work out

  1. Sorry to hear you’ve not been doing to well.Like you say you have done a lot of great stuff over the last year,but it sure does suck when you pay for it. Hopefully you will be able to make some more good memories this year.I so get your frustration, I feel it’s a case of my mind is willing but body isn’t able/won’t let me! I love the fact that you made some duck friends,that’s cute and made me laugh.Take care and a Big Hug xx

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