Do you remember me?

I didn’t know what to categorise this as so it’s under both life and home ed.

Earlier this morning I was watching videos of my old secondary school’s leavers videos (I couldn’t find my form one so I guess that’s good?) and laughing to myself at how ridiculous they are. But I continued a thought I had last night, do they remember me? I don’t mean this in an attention seeking way or anything like that, I just wonder if they do vaguely remember this Jess person. Both teachers and students. It’s kind of an odd question, I wasn’t there for long enough to establish myself as a member of the school and when I did go back in Year 8, it was only for half an hour for a few Thursdays. I only mixed with other students (outside of my form) twice on the latter occasions, so they probably wouldn’t know what was going on.

It’s funny really, I remember nearly everything about them – the primary school ones, at least – and looking at those leavers videos made me realise they really haven’t changed all that much, which amuses me. I’ve met people from school through twitter and on Facebook, and kept in touch with probably two from primary, so it’s not like I’m missing out or anything, just a wondering.

I wonder if the friend that I didn’t get on with at all through primary, but pulled through and was one of my best friends when I just got diagnosed with M.E. remembers me. I wonder if the teachers remember that weird girl who was only there for one and a half days. I certainly remember them.

I don’t know, it seems creepy the way I’ve put it but I’m not very good with words. xD It just seems weird to me that I can tell you something they did in primary school or on the first day at secondary and they probably couldn’t tell you why I disappeared. I remember them asking about me a bit when I wasn’t at school anymore but then they drifted away. I’m perfectly happy with that concept, I myself have drifted away from old friends from my first primary school but it just feels weird to see them on a video and not be there with them, watching the friends grow up and go to sixth form/college.

It’s a strange world we live in, eh? I don’t want people to think I’m sad at not being with them (Although I was a couple of weeks ago. That is life), it’s just a weird moment I thought of last night. This quote comes to mind when I think about the teachers and the friends that abandoned me because they couldn’t deal with me being ill:
I just want to let them know they didn't break me

On that note, I’m going to stop my brain from over thinking about the past and look forward. For example panic about what the hell I’m going to do with my hair (I’m not vain. I just panic when I have to go to the hairdressers. xD).
Hope I didn’t bore you all with my strange ramblings!
Jess x


The festival draws nearer

Hi there! 😀

Um yes, as you can tell Download starts on Friday. For me it starts on Saturday but oh deary me. I think I am excited I’m just worried as to how it’ll affect me. Eeeep. Probably one of the scariest things I’ll do for a while. xD I’d love to try and meet up with twitter people but as I’m a nervous wreck at the thought of just getting there I’ve decided against it. xD However if I manage to bump into some when trying to get into the Main Stage that’s fine. I’m prepped for it. I have earplugs, sunglasses, a blindfold, food, flavoured water, Polos and travel bands. Possibly a bit over the top but it’s all just in case. xD

On another note, yesterday I nearly cried because The Mighty Boosh are reuniting (I hate that the news site used that word. I know they split but I’d more like to think of it as a break). Why does it have to be in California?! D; Excuse me while I go cry over the boxset . . . That’s a bit too far, isn’t it? Yeah I thought so too. Ahem.

I haven’t been doing all that much since I last posted, really. Well, my guy friend started talking to me again so I’ve spent a lot of time chatting to him which is lovely. 🙂 Probably a bit too long as I was shattered yesterday but whatever. xD I’ve also been doing some random art which is fun. 😀 Trying to break my comfort zone by using colours that I wouldn’t normally use and that’s all a bit scary. D: I’m trying to decide what to do with my hair. I’m going to the hairdressers tomorrow and I know vaguely what I want to do to it, just not sure about what colour. I think I’m actually more nervous about having my hair dyed than going to a massive festival, is that bad or good? xD

Well, I’m off to do some more painting dance around to music and sing badly to Duran Duran. Such an exciting life. ;D
See you all soon!
Jess x


It’s been a little while since I’ve last written . . . Sorry about that. I have a history of not being  able to write frequently mainly because I can’t be arsed. 😉

I lost the past two weeks dedicating myself to watching The Mighty Boosh and fangirling a lot. xD I think my family, friends and twitter are annoyed with me now. Oh well. xP I’m trying to find things to make a costume based on one of the characters but apparently it’s hard to find mirror ball suits and fake seaweed (Ya guessed what it is yet?). *sigh* I’ve learnt pretty much all the crimps and know most of the songs. This is how I spend my time when I’m not busy trying to learn stuff that makes no sense to me. 😉 I’m planning on watching the C4 Comedy Gala thing tonight just because Noel Fielding is on it (Well, and Miranda Hart, Russell Brand and Michael McIntyre but Noel <3). Tiiiiny bit obsessed yes. xD I do love his character Vince Noir. Well I love them all, I do love Julian. He’s so shy but outgoing as well, if that’s possible xD

But yes. Moving on. xD My nan is here with me today as mum had a hospital appointment so I wanted some company. I’ve been teaching her to use links on a blog (hence there are a few more links than normal in today’s post!) and we’re probably going to just chat while she sews. 🙂

I’ve also been working on a script that I started in 2011 but only picked it back up a few days ago. Let’s just say I’m inspired again to do all the writing I used to do!

On that note I shall leave you with a Boosh song.
See ya soon!
Jess x